The rest of your life

I've lived in palatine my entire life. I've been in the same house for 16 years, and in 9 short months I am moving 800 miles away to further my education. I'm excited, don't get me wrong, but I'm also scared beyond belief. You look forward to the rest of your life all the time, but as soon as its right in front of you things start to get scary. 

It's never been an option to not go to college. I've been learning since elementary school that I have to go to college. I have to go to get a good job, to make money. No one told me that choosing where to go was the hardest decision I'll ever have to make. They some now managed to leave out the fact that you have to choose what you are going to do with the rest of your life when you are 17. I don't even know what I want for lunch half the time, how am I supposed to know where I want to spend thousands of dollars so I can get a degree? 

I know I want to change the world. I want to make a difference. I just don't know how I'm going to get there. There is no "Make a difference" major. That doesn't exist. So instead I'm staring blindly into the future hoping for the best. I tell people I know where I want to go, what I want to do. But that's just to stop the questions. I tell them I've been accepted to a University and offered a scholarship. Because that's what they want to hear. No family member wants to hear that I'm nervous because I don't think i will get into my top choice of school, or that I don't know what I want to major in. 

I know that eventually I'll figure it out. I'll make the decision of where I want to go and what I want to major in. Right now I'll continue to wait and blog about my feelings. It's scary to think about the rest of your life, but its also pretty comforting knowing that I have the world ahead of me,